Spirit of Fear, I think not!

Apparently it has been over a year since I last blogged. I will return to posting more ramblings or windows into my little world.

After much debate, I have decided to go back to school in January. Casting aside the fears that I have and finishing up a degree. Then the insane thing, I will then attack a Masters Degree in Library Science once my undergraduate degree in Communications is complete.

For many years I have wondered if I should go back to school and finish my degree. Normally I just push it aside and tell myself, I don't need it. While that is true, I think that it really nags at me and something I didn't finish. Todate between two Universities and one Community College, I have obtained 120-130 credit hours, but no degree.

In my my down moments, that's where the devil really get a hold of me. Then I focus on the degree I've never completed and the small business that I gave up on. I now know that, while yes I love to help people, small business such as Mary Kay, Usborne Books, All Natural Pet Food and the Gourmet Cupboard are not what I was made to do. Nothing wrong with those businesses, outstanding products that I would be proud to recommend. Being in business for myself is not for me. Not that I don't want to work hard, but when I do the math it is really time consuming to be profitable. Moreover, I don't feel a passion. There is no burning desire, it's just an income. I don't feel that life is about income, it's about doing what God has given you talent and passion to fulfill.

Two weeks ago I was blessed with beginning a new job. I am now a part-time librarian assistant in Youth Services in the Fort Bend County Library(Sienna Branch). This job has been an awesome blessing. I love assisting people, learning and children. The library is the perfect merger of those. It is also an inspiration to finish a degree.

One of the fears that surfaced was writing. Writing has never been something I loved to do, editing other peoples work has been easier for me. However, over the years it has become easier to write about subjects that I am passionate about. I decided that I need to meet the fear head on and write. God has not give us a spirit of fear. I will not give in to the devils temptation to sit back and have regrets when I'm 60 and I didn't finish that degree.

I figured that practicing writing before I headed back to school would help tackle my fear. Bear with me over the next six months as I blog about about my life journey.

Kate